But the thing is, just because the situation isn't as bad as it could be doesn't mean that it's easy or pleasurable. And while it's not as hard as what others have faced or are facing, it is a huge shift for me.
Having a large age range and being open to medical needs, I had never seriously considered that I might wait more than 5 months for my referral. I had never considered that I might not have my child home before court closure. It truly never occurred to me. And I don't think that was an unrealistic expectation, given my referral preferences and my wait list date. In fact, many people who have requested girls with a much more narrow age range have received their referrals.; it continues to boggle my mind that I have not.
I know that it will all happen in God's time, but what I am saying is that logically, mentally, I am facing a reality that I never even considered. This is the most difficult thing right now. This reorganization of my thought process. It's like telling me that gravity doesn't exist or that Abigail is not my daughter. Inconceivable! And that's my daily reality. I am slowly finding a way to wrap my mind around this, but it is slow-going.
So while we are all struggling and facing various difficulties, let's not diminish the suffering of others. Let's not put these hard times on a scale and rate them as "not so bad" and "much worse." Let's not pretend that the suffering of someone else should negate our own suffering. Rather let's be supportive. Let's know that this is all difficult, and seek to comfort each other. And let's turn to the Comforter of all souls.
"But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give you. I do not give to you as the world gives. Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid."